I was reading around my diary site, and one of my regular reads had posted something that someone in one of her classes had said. It struck me, because it was so wholly true. It was so damned right, so completely real. It threw me for a moment, because I hadn't even thought about it before.
A question was posed. Who remembers where they met their best friend, or girlfriend, or boyfriend? Many people raised their hands. Then the teacher asked one guy why he remembered.
We remember where we meet the people we love because life is like a flip-book. A comic strip. A photo album. You can be having the most rational of days, when something reminds you of that person. A place, something you ate, usually a smell. Then that book is opened and memory lane becomes your location, because somewhere in your subconcious every time you spent with them is sitting and waiting for a trigger. It's the triggers that can throw you off guard. Sitting in the backseat, staring at the stars, and remembering what it was like to have his hand on my leg. Drinking Sprite, and remembering the day that he made me laugh so hard that it came out my nose. The weird little things that make us remember are so unpredictable. They can ruin your day, or make it. Either you can miss him terribly, remembering all the things you loved about him, or you just laugh and... well, remember all the things you loved about him.
I wonder if someday I'll have this with Chris. If I'll be walking downtown and stop for a coffee, remembering one of our first dates. Or maybe I'll smell Axe, and remember how it was when we would sleep on the couch and what it was like to have him near me. I wonder how I'll view this relationship when I'm older. I hope that I'll be able to look back and smile.